Thursday, 14 May 2009
I'm so tired. We had to run to urgent care tonight to get Curtis checked out. He was standing on his rocking chair, fell off and hit a bookshelf. He was bleeding all over. It looked pretty bad, so we took him in. They took one look and decided it needed stitches. Poor kid was so scared. He did great though. He ended up with 4 stitches in his cheek right under his eye. Scary! It's the first time I've had to deal with this kind of thing.
Tuesday, 12 May 2009
I have a confession to make . . . I think too much. I think about everything. The kids, Brian, my family, my friends. You name it, I probably overthink it. I think and I worry. I try not to. I try to pray and turn it over to God, but I just can't seem to let things go. I lose sleep at night because my mind won't stop spinning. I lay in bed trying to figure out how to solve the world's problems. I stress. I drive myself crazy. I give myself headaches. It's a huge problem. Especially since stress causes my pain condition to really flare up. Everyone tells me to reduce my stress. To stop worrying. Ummm . . . .okay. I have kids. Stress. My grandpa has cancer. Worry. My mom has heart problems. Stress. I hurt. Worry. My sister isn't living right. Stress. My parents have no idea. Worry. My friends are hurting. Worry. It's a frustrating cycle.
Friday, 08 May 2009
Ever have those times that you're so busy living life to really stop and savour it? That's my life lately. Between sick kids and birthday and school stuff and Brian being on vacation and doing home maintenance and all this other stuff, I just haven't had two minutes to sit and do anything just for me in forever. I love blogging even if it's just a record for myself to remeber the day-to day stuff of life. But it's had to be on the back burner. I love photography and photo editing, but have had so little time to indulge in it lately. It makes me sad. But then I remember that this phase of my life is so short-lived. My kids will only need me for such a short while. Before I know it they'll be off living their own lives and I'll be wishing they had a minute for me. Being a mommy is who I am . . . it comes before anything else in my life. Except for my relationship with God. I know many people who don't understand or agree with that viewpoint, but that's okay too. I've been slammed with people lately trying to make me feel guilty for being a mommy, and I refuse. I prayed for the chance to be a mommy. I was given these miracles to raise up for God. I belong with them.
On the lighter side, Amelia turned one last month. She was finally able to meet her great-grandparents for the first time. It was so special to celebrate her special day with them! I'm sad that she's growing up so fast though. She is such an amazing little girl. She loves to tease and be the center of attention. She's always blowing kisses and waving and clapping at random people in the grocery store. Silly kid! She's always into everything though. I have to watch her every second of the day. I don't dare go to the bathroom without her . . .she gets into trouble that fast. A few days I caught her climbing into the bedroom window. She has no fear.
Curtis and Jenea are doing great too. We've all been down with colds and the flu and various other things all winter. But I think we're all healthy again finally. Curtis is doing great ins school. All his teachers love him. He has a ton of friends. He's been reading at a second grade level, and his teacher is going to be testing him because she thinks he can go higher. Jenea is so ready to be done with preschool. We registered her for kindergarten and she got mad when she had to go to preschool the next day. She thought she was starting kindergarten. She's in a huge hurry to grow up. We have to watch her. She's already quite the diva.
I thank God for all three of them every day, craziness and all.
Tuesday, 05 May 2009
I'll try to blog more later tonight. I can't promise, but I'll try.
Friday, 27 March 2009
Sorry, just needed to scream.